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Off The Bean Vine When I Woke
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Subject: Off The Bean Vine When I Woke.... 9 10 04
September 10 04
EXCERPTS FROM DIARIES DATED: 9 11 01
WHEN I WOKE
..This morning I looked at the day. It was fair and pleasant and I was glad.
This was a day which I could enjoy and a day in which I could accomplish much. I
took breakfast with my wife in the pre dawn hours, talked about upcoming events
and visits, how was my daughter doing on her essay for history class, what's for
dinner, the small change of a family. I changed into my uniform and left for the
pilot's preflight weather briefing at the airport, today was a simple taxi
flight out to LAX and then a deadhead return trip would put me home in time for
a late supper. As I drove out of my driveway I remembered I need to talk to
Roger at the garage about the brake noise again.
WHEN I WOKE
...this morning I wished I hadn't gone out with Karen and the girls last night.
The club was a lot of fun but I stayed out too late. Into the shower and I let
the steaming hot water lift my spirits and soon I feel I can deal with the day.
It's down to me or Frieda for the office manager's position and I want to look
sharp and be on top of my game. I need that position if I'm going to stay with
this firm. Two years without a promotion is long enough I mumble to myself. I
play the answering machine and find a message from Bill, he's a sweet man and
maybe he's the RIGHT man? I'll know tonight when we have dinner, he's taking me
to a nice beef and boards dinner theater. Now where is that pair of shoes I
laid out last night?
WHEN I WOKE
...this morning Art was making oatmeal again downstairs in the main fire station
cafeteria. Oh, damn, not oatmeal again! After I showered I got a candy bar from
the vending machine of death and munch away drinking my coffee and looking over
the district fire alarm reports.
"Hey Lootenent!! that diversion valve on pumper 2 is still leaking, should I tear it down and replace the seals?" asked one of my firemen.
"Yes," I told him "just be sure you line up engine company 22 to cover us while
our pumper is out-of-service"
"Will do Lootenent!" he tells me.
I look at my crew, young men but good firefighters all.
WHEN I WOKE
.This morning I was running late and had to do a quick shower, dress, and
snatched a granola bar on the way out the door. All the papers are in my
briefcase and by this time tomorrow we will OWN that new account for the
company. My presentation is the best I have ever put together.
The taxi driver is sluggish and talkative and I have to keep telling him I am in
a hurry, I have to be on Flight 11 today. Grudgingly he turns his attention to
the road and traffic.
WHEN I WOKE
...this morning I rolled over and kissed my new bride of a week. It amazes me
that she could find love in her heart for an old high mileage cop like me but
I'm not one to question good fortune, I love her with all my heart and know she
loves me the same way. I linger beside her sensing her scent and her warmth
until I finally MUST get up and get ready. A year ago I was convinced that I
would be one more old bachelor cop, that's until I met and fell in love with
Dana, lovely Dana, kind hearted and passionate Dana. Life has given me a new
direction.
WHEN I WOKE
...this morning I was still heartbroken over this damned divorce. I shaved and
talked to my mirror "She doesn't deserve those kids, she's a rotten mother and a
damned fool" I talked without needing to answer, I was just going through the
motions. Got on the bus and rode downtown practicing what I would say in the
hearing when the judge asked me why I wanted custody of my children. "This just
has to work out," I kept telling myself....."it just HAS to..."
WHEN I WOKE
...this morning I wished I was going fishing instead of going to work. I don't
know why I always get saddled with metal detector screening, it's not like I'm
the only qualified man at the airport. Somebody else ought to be doing it,
somebody that gives a damn.
WHEN I WOKE
...this morning I calmly said my morning prayers and petitioned the Lord to
grant us a calm day and shed His grace on us here on earth. We live in such
troubled times. I dress and decide to walk to the church this morning to give me
time to think, it IS a pleasant day and I need the exercise. Tomorrow I have to
chair the Interdenominational Minister's Conference at Madison Square Gardens,
what shall I tell them? In which direction should I steer them to accomplish the
most good? How can I bring the Lord's work to a beneficial end?
WHEN I WOKE
...this morning I cried for a while. The doctors still don't know what's wrong
with Freddie my youngest. They are ordering more tests today but it tears my
heart out that he is so sick and no one seems to be able to understand what is
causing this. Dressed in only my bathrobe and slippers I looked in on my kids,
sleeping still, Freddie is restless and his breathing is shallow and troubled.
"Please dear God, save him for me!" In a fog I dress, let the nanny: Victoria,
in and dress for work. I'll call the specialists at the hospital at lunch break.
WHEN I WOKE
...this morning I grabbed chow at the chow hall in my flight suit and went over
to the ready flight briefing room with the other on-duty response pilots, looks
like three Eagle jockeys and a couple of F16 drivers. Nothing new on the threat
board this morning, we have a standard response time drill tomorrow and that
will be fun, not! I looked forward to a day of hanging around the flight line
and joking with the wrench monkeys, great guys, good mechanics. Pickens and
Lambert are getting out in a few weeks, going to go to American Airlines and
make some REAL money, I wondered if maybe I should do that too or stay in and
try for Lt. Col.?
WHEN I WOKE
...this morning I hit the snooze alarm three times before I got up finally,
cleaned up and washed down some toast and eggs with bad coffee. I make a mental
note to tell wife to use GOOD coffee in the coffee pot not that bargain stuff.
The drive to the airport was crowded and hectic as always even at the employee's
entrance gates. Parked and noticed a new scratch on the fender and silently
curse the idiot that keyed my car, probably some buddy of my ex wife no doubt.
I'll deal with her later, this time I'm getting the police involved. In a testy
mood I manned my scope and got the run down from the controller I was relieving,
made sure we were tied into Indianapolis Regional Control network and began
shuffling airplanes around the sky.
WHEN I WOKE
...this morning I was looking forward to my upcoming vacation. Three weeks away
from this dreary office, three weeks with my kids and wife and no boss or
telephone to answer. I promised the kids we would go to Disney World this year,
I almost waited too long, they're ten and twelve this year. Kissed the wife and
off to work I go, for two more days and then vacation!
beansimple said it
and above all, don't forget these unfinished stories and the many lives spent on
this day, simple lives for the most part yet changed forever in the fire and
smoke of a man-made hell. Three thousand died.
I will not forget
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